How can he be so calm and collected when I’m over here acting a mess? I know he cares but it just seems like he thinks everything is going to be okay. I can’t help that I think the worst, he tells me not think that way but it’s better than creating false hope. What if things dont work out? What if we don’t end up being able to be together? If I could stop time I would, but...
I’m sorry that I’m a crazy, clingy bitch because I care. We tried to push it off, save it for another day but Tuesday keeps getting closer and there’s nothing we can do to stop it. The closer it gets the more I lash out, I haven’t been myself lately which is understandable. I don’t like this, I don’t like being this person..This is a test, a test to see if our...
I’m at that place again..I can’t explain it. I just feel so helpless. I feel like I keep falling deeper and deeper into this mess that was created years ago. I’m in so deep even he can’t keep the demons at bay anymore. He doesn’t understand what it’s like..I’m sorry I have a problem that he can’t comprehend. He thinks because all these minor things...
confessionsofarapevictim: I just feel stuck. I’m not moving forward. I’m not going backward. I’m going nowhere.
confessionsofarapevictim: Reaction I got when someone in high school found out what happened: “Oh, come on, you weren’t really assaulted. Girls like you don’t get assaulted. Only pretty skinny girls get assaulted. You should consider yourself lucky he wanted you.”
confessionsofarapevictim: Girls make fun of me for being raped and say I deserved it. This is why I can not be friends with girls.