You should think about how you'll feel if you actually have an abortion, it's a hard decision and a lot of women feel awful afterwards because they realize they really did want their child. I'm not saying you should keep the baby but think hard about it before you just go and do it. It might be hard to take care of a child without help but if you really want the baby you CAN do it. Good luck with your decision, whatever it is.
I wish I would’ve seen this before I made my decision..My boyfriend Travis eventually came around. We had pretty much decided we were going to keep the baby but my parents pretty much forced me into the abortion. How they did so is a extremely long story. Now I feel absolutely horrible and it was the biggest mistake I’ve ever made. I know now after the fact that I could’ve done it, that I should’ve had the baby even though it would’ve been really hard. Thank you for the advice anyways, I didn’t think anyone would even respond to this.
Ever since the abortion that I was FORCED into, I feel like a part of me is missing. I don’t feel like I killed my baby, I feel like a mother who lost their child. People expect you to be okay after a abortion because they believe you chose to do it. I’m definitely not okay. I’m grieving. The regret is so strong it overwhelms me. There’s nothing I want more than to take it back. I know with every ounce of me that I did the wrong thing. I have this feeling inside that tells me it would’ve been a girl. All I can think about are names and how wonderful it’d be to hold my child in my arms. I constantly look at baby clothes and create outfits in my head for all the things we’d do like going to the beach, the park, etc. All our “first time” outfits like Halloween, Christmas, Easter, etc. How cute she’d be all snuggled up asleep at night. How small her little hands and feet are compared to mine. I drive myself mad with all these thoughts..Everyone tells me I have a life time ahead of me to have children. No. I don’t want any other child, I want MY child. The child that I miss every. single. day. My heart aches..
“Annie turned away, her eyes glittering. ‘Here’s what no one tells you,’ she said. ‘When you deliver a fetus, you get a death certificate, but not a birth certificate. And afterward, your milk comes in, and there’s nothing you can do to stop it.’ She looked up at me. ‘You can’t win. Either you have the baby and wear your pain on the outside, or you don’t have the baby, and you keep that ache in you forever. I know I didn’t do the wrong thing. But I don’t feel like I did the right thing, either.”
I spent all night crying and trying to figure out whats the best thing to do for me and my baby. I cant imagine being a mother this young but at the same time i cant imagine going through the horrible process of abortion. I wouldnt be able to live with myself. Travis tells me im selfish and that i embrace it but hes wrong. Hes the reason im strongly weighing abortion. I dont want to ruin his life and thats what he claims will happen if we have a baby. That he doesnt know if he’ll stay with me because this isnt what he wants. He expects me to confront my parents alone because in his mind i guess it doesnt take two people to make a baby. I tell him hes just as much responsible as i am but he doesnt seem to think so. Apparently in his eyes this is all my fault. The last thing i need is a boyfriend who isnt going to be there for me. I was up all night in pain and crying because no matter what i choose someone gets hurt in the process. I have to carry the burden of making a choice while he gets to go about his normal life..