How can he be so calm and collected when I’m over here acting a mess? I know he cares but it just seems like he thinks everything is going to be okay. I can’t help that I think the worst, he tells me not think that way but it’s better than creating false hope. What if things dont work out? What if we don’t end up being able to be together? If I could stop time I would, but I cant. I just want to spend every single second with him. Is that a crime? Does that make me a bad person? Because lately that’s what everyone’s been making it seem like..